sammichgirl:

He let himself live an extra four years.

Well, to be exact, an extra four years, three months, and eight days.

Dean was gone and nothing could bring him back this time.

Sam wasn’t the same.  It was unlike any death the brothers had experienced before.  Something told Sam deep down inside, this was it.  There was an eerie peaceful acceptance that washed over him.  He wouldn’t talk.  Would barely move.  He became a shell of a person, his life force ripped away when Dean’s heart stopped beating.

Jody tended to him as best she could.  There was no light in his eyes.  He survived, but he wasn’t living.  Jody didn’t know all the details since Sam wouldn’t speak. 

She’d found him alone in the rundown house they’d been squatting in.  He’d actually sent her a letter via the US postal service, asking her to come, brief details of a hunt gone wrong.  She thought it odd he hadn’t called or texted, and made her way to him as quickly as she could.  Upon her arrival, she understood – he’d needed time.

Sam had already salted and burned Dean’s body, all of his belongings, and the Impala.  For all she could gather, it surprised her that he didn’t throw himself on the pyre.  He made eye contact with her once, opened his mouth and attempted to speak before promptly shutting it and going to sit outside on the porch.

He spent his days there, just watching over the open fields.  Sitting inside near the window when it was too cold.  Never any emotion, just blank stares and minimal monotonous movements.  So she did what she could for him, even reached out to Garth about how to break whatever spell he seemed to be under.

When Garth came to visit, he took one look at Sam and knew.  This was no spell.  He told Jody the same.  It wasn’t even grief.  Sam was waiting to die. 

Waiting for what, they had no clue – and given all their training and hunter experience, they couldn’t understand why or figure out the only clue they had – Sam himself.  He was just biding his time until he could be with his brother again. 

Four years, three months, and eight days.  The exact amount of time Dean had lived until Sam came into his life, their souls calling to each other.  The exact amount of time Sam would live until he joined his brother in their shared Heaven, when their souls would reunite. 

tagged → #samxdean #not canon #better
mixgoldenphoenix asked: It's possible one of the reasons Castiel didn't come when Sam called was because Sam was soulless and souls lend prayer power. Like, Destiel fans get all, "Ooh, more profound bond," when that's brought up in the show, but I seriously think Sam being soulless came into play more.

percysowner:

bangingpatchouli:

optimisam:

rirren:

optimisam:

rirren:

optimisam:

optimisam:

It’s possible. Especially when put that way. Because I’d only seen people argue that if you don’t have a soul you can’t pray, which obviously isn’t true according to 6x10, but if souls lend power to prayer, that makes sense.

That profound bond line should be burned, as should the line about Dean being Bobby’s favorite.

rirren:

Yes, much as I love Sam, I thought the way Cas killed Balthazar was even more shocking than when he broke Sam’s wall. I can’t help but think that angels see family far differently from humans. Cas came across as cold and calculating in season six, I thought, much as Edlund tried to explain it all in “The Man Who Would Be King.”

I do think that Cas was legitimately busy with the war in heaven. Although, you’d think that he could’ve taken a couple seconds to say, “Sorry, Sam, don’t know what’s wrong with you, can’t help. ‘bye.” It’s not as though he didn’t hear his prayer. He admitted he just ignored it. I mean he took the trouble to pull him out of the cage for whatever reason. You’d think he’d care enough to at least answer Sam’s prayer. The fact that he didn’t made me suspicious for the longest time that he’d known all along. After all, he must have known that Crowley was using Sam and Samuel Campbell to hunt for him. I don’t know; there are still some unexplained things in that conspiracy.

I always thought Cas had to know that Sam didn’t have a soul because in My Bloody Valentine in season five, he was able to recognize that a man’s soul was being carried in a suitcase to be fed to Famine. Since they weren’t doing massive retcons adding to the mythology back then I pretty much assumed that Cas knew pretty quickly once he got Sam out that there was no soul there. My head canon is that he realized the problem and either didn’t think he could fix it or he felt the heaven situation didn’t give him the time or luxury of fixing it. always thought the feeling around Sam’s body was for show, because he could spot human souls before. But he needed a misdirect so Dean and possibly Sam when he first came back didn’t start demanding he go back for Sam’s soul. It really is the only reason I saw for Cas not telling Dean he’d resurrected Sam.

Right?!! I just don’t think that they ever really explained the extent of Castiel’s deception in season six. I honestly think that Cas is just this season beginning to understand what friendship, family, and human connection means. Whatever the “profound bond” means, it has nothing to do with a human understanding of love. He’s still really a fledgling in that respect, I think. It doesn’t mean that Dean and Sam aren’t important, just that he doesn’t have the human experience to grasp it. I question that anyone in his position, as a non-human could ever completely internalize that capability since it isn’t his in his nature. He can understand it, but I don’t think he can operate that way without thinking about it — for example, making the PB&J connection or how he didn’t make the Deathstar connection.

tagged → #castil #spn season six #spn
"While Kripke insisted that SUPERNATURAL not introduce angels as characters for his first three seasons, picking up Garth Ennis’s and Steve Dillon’s PREACHER (now slated to become a television adaptation for AMC) convinced him that angels could be something other than moral compasses. “Angels can be d—ks!” he exclaimed triumphantly, which led to the introduction of Misha Collins’ recurring character Castiel in Season Four (later revealed to be Kripke’s personal favorite season)."
— [X]
tagged → #eric kripke #spn
mixgoldenphoenix asked: It's possible one of the reasons Castiel didn't come when Sam called was because Sam was soulless and souls lend prayer power. Like, Destiel fans get all, "Ooh, more profound bond," when that's brought up in the show, but I seriously think Sam being soulless came into play more.

optimisam:

rirren:

optimisam:

rirren:

optimisam:

rirren:

optimisam:

It’s possible. Especially when put that way. Because I’d only seen people argue that if you don’t have a soul you can’t pray, which obviously isn’t true according to 6x10, but if souls lend power to prayer, that makes sense.

That profound bond line should be burned, as should the line about Dean being Bobby’s favorite.

Also, the reason Cas came when Dean called was because of the heavenly weapons. I don’t think it really had anything to do with the fact that Dean called. Cas ignored both Sam and Dean for that year; the only reason he came back was because they had news of something that could help Cas with the war in heaven.

You know, he was only supposed to be hanging out with them during the Apocalypse. Maybe he was just ready to move on, especially after Sam was so not-Sam anymore. I think there was something humiliating, crushing, and terrifying about the way Sam suddenly was for Cas. That was the impression I got during the season, anyway.

Cas wasn’t exactly checking up on Dean when Bobby and Sam weren’t. He was just like, “Eh.”

I think it was more that Cas was just really busy and preoccupied with Heaven at that time. After making sure Sam and Dean were safe and alive, his number one priority was his home and his family.

he keeps telling us he cares about his family 

but i still feel like, even now, that it’s just talk

that could be the canonical reasoning, though, yes

By family I mean Heaven and the angels, and I think that’s was definitely what drove Cas to take all those extreme decisions in Season 6—a desperation to keep his home from falling apart from civil war.
I don’t feel like that’s just talk, because Cas was really busy in season 6 doing all this stuff to save Heaven (searching for the Heavenly weapons, trying to stop Raphael, fighting in battles, searching for ways to open Purgatory to give himself a power boost), and I don’t know why else he would have been doing that if not to save his home. They were definitely bad decisions and Cas probably made the whole situation worse, which I think Cas realised and is why he took a more pacifist and hands-off approach after season 6.

i just feel so awful about how his old friends got treated by him, i guess. literally he killed all of his old friends. i wanted angels to have relationships, like they kept implying was the case, but they don’t, really. they just have…alliances, but even that way i don’t feel that cas really respected his allies.

Yes, much as I love Sam, I thought the way Cas killed Balthazar was even more shocking than when he broke Sam’s wall. I can’t help but think that angels see family far differently from humans. Cas came across as cold and calculating in season six, I thought, much as Edlund tried to explain it all in “The Man Who Would Be King.”

I do think that Cas was legitimately busy with the war in heaven. Although, you’d think that he could’ve taken a couple seconds to say, “Sorry, Sam, don’t know what’s wrong with you, can’t help. ‘bye.” It’s not as though he didn’t hear his prayer. He admitted he just ignored it. I mean he took the trouble to pull him out of the cage for whatever reason. You’d think he’d care enough to at least answer Sam’s prayer. The fact that he didn’t made me suspicious for the longest time that he’d known all along. After all, he must have known that Crowley was using Sam and Samuel Campbell to hunt for him. I don’t know; there are still some unexplained things in that conspiracy.

             and he was
very beautiful, kissed with his eyes closed, and only felt good while moving.

tagged → #sam winchester

twinkjared:

Ay, whether or not Sam would have told Jess about monsters and hunting, she was dead from the moment Brady decided to introduce her to Sam. Brady had the intent to use her to get Sam attached to her, and then kill her off to give Sam a reason to get back into hunting.

Brady targeted her long before Sam met her, and if Brady couldn’t do the job, Azazel would have sent someone after Jess, as he said, “she just got in the way,” and that he needed Sam sharp.

Yo, Sam withholding information that hunters always do because they savor these innocent things, did not get Jess killed, it was Brady through the work of Azazel.

You are absolutely right that Sam not telling Jess didn’t get her killed. He had no way of knowing that he was being targeted — because John didn’t tell him. Huh. There might be a kind of connection there in that adult persons do have a right to know things that might effect their lives. I give Sam a pass on Jess, because he was young and naive and specifically didn’t know that demons were after him.

I do agree with Dean, however, that not telling Jess was unhealthy, and I think there’s a good chance that if he didn’t ever tell, as he said he wouldn’t. that it would have threatened their relationship later on. She was not an “innocent thing” btw, she was an autonomous human being with the right to know the kind of person she was living with.

With Amelia, yeah, on the other hand he was wrong. He had enough experience at that point to know that something might come after him. The fact that nothing had by the time Don returned is immaterial. It took a year before the djinn came after Dean at Lisa’s, and Sam knew that. Amelia had the right to know that she might be in danger through her connection to Sam.

I realize that Sam catches a lot of crap for things he doesn’t deserve, but I think he’s being given too much of a pass on the Amelia issue (which I realize you weren’t addressing, but I think goes hand in hand with not telling Jess). Neither Jess nor Amelia were children. They were adult women and had a right to information that might effect their lives.

optimisam:

bangingpatchouli:

optimisam:

allthoseotherworlds:

percysowner:

nawaazish:

bookdal:

Reminding you that Soulless was murdered. RIP my love. Boo hiss to you, Dean. 

Well, it was either that or leave Sam’s soul in the cage to be tortured for all eternity, so…

Well he COULD have asked his good buddy with the profound bond who was partly in control of HEAVEN to take Sam’s soul there, where it might actually HEAL and not kill his body or the person that was Soulless!Sam. But Dean wanted Sam with him no matter how much that might hurt Sam.

Hey, I totally agree that leaving Sam’s soul in the Cage wasn’t acceptable, but sticking it back in his body without even ASKING Cas to send Sam to heaven and peace is not trying to help Sam. If Cas said no, then shoving the soul back would be plan B.

Yeah, I kind of like the idea of taking Sam’s soul and sticking it in Heaven and just keeping Soulless!Sam on Earth. I’m actually sort of tempted to write it, actually.

if you write this, can you please link me? i am in love with soulless!sam forever.

The thing is Castiel didn’t appear to be particularly concerned about Sam in season six. When Soulless!Sam prayed to him for help — before he knew that Sam lacked a soul, apparently — he was to busy with the angel war to bother responding. Yes, he protested that forcing Sam’s damaged soul back into his body my result in Sam’s destruction, but he could have volunteered to take Sam’s soul to heaven. He didn’t. What he did do was break the wall in Sam’s head and subject him to months of mental and emotional torment. So … yeah, reminder that good buddy Cas was not Sam’s friend in season six, but I guess, Dean could have asked …

I really loved Soulless!Sam and it’s too bad that that aspect of Sam has been pretty much erased from his personality. I guess, Sam really “killed” him? Anyway, I know that putting Sam’s damaged soul back into his body is just more ammunition and another example of Dean’s selfishness to many fans right now, but I find it hard to fault him for not leaving Sam’s soul in the cage to be continue being tortured. I don’t think his motives are simple as many make them out to be.

I like to think that he’s even more able to tap into the cool, logical side of himself now. Like when he was against the wall in 7x16 and figured out the thing with Artemis, it reminded me of how he was during the interview in 6x08. Idk. There’ve been a couple instances of him using that cool logic this season too. I have to think for a minute to name some specifically, but I recall feeling that way this season.

I like to think of Cas in season 6 as seeing Sam as “broken” and not knowing what he did wrong and avoiding his mistakes like he was so prone to do at that time. I do think he was concerned, at least in 6x07 and in 6x10 and in 6x12 when they talked about the state of Sam’s soul. I don’t think it was right to respond by avoiding Sam, but Cas was very avoidant at that time.

Yes, Cas said things that made him sound concerned, but given the way he lied to them and hid his dealings with Crowley, I find his words questionable. I’m of the action speak louder than words school, and his actions were callous and injurious. I hadn’t really thought of him as avoidant so much until season seven, but maybe it just wasn’t as blatant.

tagged → #castiel #sam winchester

i’ve been in love with love
and the idea of 

something binding us together
you know that love is strong enough

tagged → #samxdean

optimisam:

allthoseotherworlds:

percysowner:

nawaazish:

bookdal:

Reminding you that Soulless was murdered. RIP my love. Boo hiss to you, Dean. 

Well, it was either that or leave Sam’s soul in the cage to be tortured for all eternity, so…

Well he COULD have asked his good buddy with the profound bond who was partly in control of HEAVEN to take Sam’s soul there, where it might actually HEAL and not kill his body or the person that was Soulless!Sam. But Dean wanted Sam with him no matter how much that might hurt Sam.

Hey, I totally agree that leaving Sam’s soul in the Cage wasn’t acceptable, but sticking it back in his body without even ASKING Cas to send Sam to heaven and peace is not trying to help Sam. If Cas said no, then shoving the soul back would be plan B.

Yeah, I kind of like the idea of taking Sam’s soul and sticking it in Heaven and just keeping Soulless!Sam on Earth. I’m actually sort of tempted to write it, actually.

if you write this, can you please link me? i am in love with soulless!sam forever.

The thing is Castiel didn’t appear to be particularly concerned about Sam in season six. When Soulless!Sam prayed to him for help — before he knew that Sam lacked a soul, apparently — he was to busy with the angel war to bother responding. Yes, he protested that forcing Sam’s damaged soul back into his body my result in Sam’s destruction, but he could have volunteered to take Sam’s soul to heaven. He didn’t. What he did do was break the wall in Sam’s head and subject him to months of mental and emotional torment. So … yeah, reminder that good buddy Cas was not Sam’s friend in season six, but I guess, Dean could have asked …

I really loved Soulless!Sam and it’s too bad that that aspect of Sam has been pretty much erased from his personality. I guess, Sam really “killed” him? Anyway, I know that putting Sam’s damaged soul back into his body is just more ammunition and another example of Dean’s selfishness to many fans right now, but I find it hard to fault him for not leaving Sam’s soul in the cage to be continue being tortured. I don’t think his motives are simple as many make them out to be.

optimisam:

sweetsamofmine:

This is a conversation that is taking place ONLY because Dean knows he has to go against Sam’s wishes. 

queen-of-carven-stone:             

From the moment I saw this scene, I suspected that “Ezekiel” wasn’t possessing Sam for altruistic reasons, and I wondered then if Dean had insisted on telling Sam the truth, whether Ezekiel would have allowed it. Later events confirmed that Gadreel was and is willing to do just about anything to get what he wants, and he wanted Sam as a vessel whether to heal or hide or for some other ends that we don’t yet know about. He’s killed friends, foes, and strangers. He was willing to subsume Sam in order to retain possession of his body.

I’m not excusing Dean tricking Sam into possession or gaslighting him as he did for weeks, but as we saw in “Rock and a Hard Place” and in “Holy Terror,” Gadreel wasn’t going to let Dean tell Sam that he was being possessed. The moment that Dean tricked Sam into it, it was already too late.

Tom’s Monday Meta Digest, vol 44: 21 Apr 2013 (1st Anniversary Edition)

defilerwyrm:

The Monday Meta Digest turns one year old today! In celebration of that, instead of flogging the week’s newest meta (no worries, there’ll be PLENTY next week), I’m gonna give y’all my Top Twelve that I’ve found over the course of the last year (or so!).

Some of these are old, and some are new, and sadly some of my all-time favourites have been lost along the way, and the list is spectacularly biased, but all of these are must-reads IMO. ;)

1.  Dean Winchester and Childhood PTSD: An Examination of Personality Traits Common to Adult Survivors of Untreated Childhood PTSD by nekosmuse (reader discretion advised)

Dean’s broken psychology is one of the backbones of this show. What makes it so poignant is the fact that the sort of problems that Dean has, on a very base level underneath the ghosts and demons and such, are perfectly human traumas and tragedies.

3. I’m Poison: Dean Winchester’s Dark Side by @deanisthenewcain

The newest on this list, I believe, and probably the most quotable.

4. It is Easier to Build Strong Children than to Repair Broken Men: Dean Winchester and Early Years Education by lookatthesefreakinghipsters

This one goes into some elements of the Winchester brothers’ upbringing that we don’t often think about, as well as many that we generally do.

5. Latchkey Hero: Masculinity, Class and the Gothic in Eric Kripke’s Supernatural by Julia Wright (reader discretion advised)

I daresay this is a classic. It makes me pine for the days when the Winchesters weren’t so effortlessly resourced, which in turn feeds into #9….

6. No One Cares That You’re Broken: Dean as an ACoA by lookatthesefreakinghipsters (reader discretion advised)

Goes along quite well with #1 and #4.

7. Pink and Satiny: An Exploration of Dean Winchester’s Bisexuality by queerpotters (sobrans @ LJ)

Absolutely required reading. If you skip everything else, read this one. This was the meta that got me into this fandom in general and into meta in particular.

8. Sexual Violence in Supernatural: A Study Regarding Sam and Dean by fansofcollisions (reader discretion advised)

The meta that shows us that “in nearly every case of sexual violence and/or threat against the brothers, Dean’s attacker is a man while Sam’s is a woman.”

9. SPN and the Underclass by laespada @ LJ

Another classic and more required reading, which sheds more light on the gulf between the show’s first five seasons and the subsequent four so far.

10. Stars Both Infinite and Distant: the Necessity of Isolation in Supernatural’s Heaven by ceeainthereforthat

On the form & function of Heaven, Hell, the Axis Mundi, and that pesky “soulmate debate”.

11. Touched by an Angel: An Analysis on Michael and Lucifer’s Interactions with Their Environment through Touch by @fuckyeahlucifersupernatural

Kind of exactly what it says on the tin. You didn’t think we were going to make it through this list without Lucifer meta, did you?

12. “The Walking Dean”: Zombies and Identities in Supernatural Season 5 by freddiefrowns

Ahh, identity!horror, gotta love it. This meta made me do more critical thinking about zombies than I thought I’d ever do and I’m glad for it.

13. The Weight of the World is Love by thecaptainsoiree

Links to the master post. This might be kind of cheating because it’s more like a great sprawling two-season thesis but still, it’s goddamn good!

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So there we are. Next week we’ll go back to the normal format. It’s been a long, crazy year. Here’s to the next one to come. o/

colettecapricious:

A Striking Position to Take: SPN and economic instability

Really interesting look at class and SPN, something I am really interested in. If you judge by my rants, I have problems with the bunker way of life with it’s apparently unlimited money supply. Not that i think it’s improbable, it’s just another thing I would like to see address. Those clothes Dean is wearing? Expensive. And who taught him to dress like that? Has he been buying GQ on the side?

Not just Dean, but Sam as well, and that started prior to the bunker. I was asking where they were getting expensive tailored clothes — it’s not so easy to find good-fitting suits for someone as big as Sam — and where were they keeping them when they were still living out of the Impala? That was symptomatic of a larger move from blue-collar neighborhoods, dives, and factories to McMansions and corporate offices. It started after Kripke left. The entire feel of the show went from gritty and dark to over-saturated color in a more comic book genre feeling. I think we’ve seen a slight return to the darker look of the show this season, and I found it interesting that Dean has sought refuge in dive bars again out of familiarity and comfort.

I share your discomfort with the bunker way of life with its inherent safety and nearly unlimited resources. While fans are celebrating Sam having a library and Dean a kitchen, the bunker itself has allowed in a breakdown of the intimacy between the brothers due physical separation. Their almost constant “living in one another’s pocket” life on the road — either stuck in the Impala or a motel room together — encouraged them to communicate. Their physical  proximity to one another caused conflict to come to a head, and they had to face their issues. They can now go into another room and close the door. Those who grow up poor are familiar with how a small house or apartment or trailer, perhaps sharing a bedroom with a sibling, influences emotional intimacy and personal communication with family members. The bunker provides luxury that the boys never had not just in the “things” that it houses but in the space itself, which encourages isolation from one another.

I can’t help but think that for two people who are perfectly comfortable holding a conversation with the bathroom door open while one showers, the degree of separation in the bunker must be isolating. It must influence the dynamic between them. It allows them to stew over things rather than being forced to deal with it as they may have in the past. I’m thinking of Sam walking off and shutting the bedroom door while Dean went to his own room to listen to music with headphones on. It’s so much easier not to talk when not in the same room and so much harder to go to the other’s door and knock — to make that first move at reconciliation.

Anyway, I do feel that the move away from their poor or blue-collar roots on Supernatural is symptomatic of a trend in the media in this country to erase the working class and those living in poverty as though unworthy of attention. Or maybe it’s just a move away from Kripke’s vision of who these characters are to a network strategy of what sells to their target audience. Either way, I find it problematic.